So...Ever since I decided to go back to school I have been struggling. I struggled deciding whether or not go to back. I struggled to get tuition figured out. I struggled to figure out which classes to take. I struggled finding the motivation to do the work. I have now made it into my second semester back and I am still struggling.
I guess I've questioned if my struggles have just been because:
- I've had 3 years off
- The other side is trying to keep me from doing something good
- or Heavenly Father is just trying to tell me "Chelsie- You don't need to do this {At least not right now}"- Maybe?
- I already have my associates and maybe that is enough for me?
- I already have a job that I love and don't see the HUGE benefit all this work could be worth
- Maybe it's time for me to concentrate on getting ready for a family and not so much on the educational part right now
- That at the rate I"m taking classes (between 3 and1 per semester) It will take me about 6 YEARS to finish my bachelors???
- And so on....
Trust me, there are plenty more.
So my struggle of the day is: I am only into Chapter 5 of the Accounting Class that I'm taking and while it's all very interesting material- easy to absorb- I just don't care. I HATE doing the homework. I HATE studying. I HATE locking myself away in the office to do homework and leaving Justin alone. I HATE that we have a basement that needs work and I'm spending my time with my nose in a book instead of down there working on it.
So the problem is....I hate this. I can not even imagine having to continue this through May. My Problem is...I am past the "drop" deadline. As in...all that $800 of tuition that this class is costing me, will be wasted.
Gone Forever.
But I want more than anything to be able to drop this class and be done.
Maybe I needed to go back for these few semesters to learn that I wouldn't regret not going back...
Maybe what I'm looking for is Validation.
I need someone to tell me "It's Okay- drop the class and move on" or "Chelsie- You're being lazy, just DO IT."
Will someone please tell me what to do :D
Please?
1 comment:
Looks like no one wants to tell you what to do!! LOL including me. If you want the education I think you should get it now but, if you absolutely dread the work and are unhappy drop it! Don't worry so much about the money. Is it worth being miserable for $800? I secretly think you want to start a family....that is really hard to do with schooling and work. Good Luck with your decision. Love Ya!!!
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